Alex
That's terrible, Alex. I'm sorry you've had to go through all of that.
I get it, I do. I've seen some pretty fucked up stuff in my time serving with the Marines. Women...children....innocent civilians dead only because they were in the wrong place at the wrong time.
After I got back from Iraq, to my wife and kids, I realized how messed up I was because of what I saw overseas. My daughter wanted me to read her favourite book to her the first night I got back but I refused. Said I'd read it to her the next day. But there was no next day for her. I took my wife and kids to Central Park and we ended up in the middle of a mob fight. I held my lifeless daughter in my hands before I was shot. I should have died that day too. Lots of days I wish I had.
But through all that pain, I've taken to cleaning the streets up. Protecting civilians from these monsters who are hell bent on destroying lives. I'm using that pain to do some good even if some don't agree with my methods. If you choose to live, think about all of the good you could do. For this generation and others after it.