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Raina Maris. ([info]raina_maris) wrote in [info]manchester_rpg,
@ 2010-09-19 18:46:00

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When my brain's ticking like a bomb.
Who Raina & Jack, then Desmond
What Booze fixes all the problems in the world
When Sunday night
Where By the pond
Rating R (language and sexual situations)
Status In progress



It was a dream that had Raina wanting to leave campus for the night.

Lately, most of her dreams had been dark and she woke aching, both physically and emotionally. Her mind was tired from screaming and she felt like she was spinning out of control. Last night she'd found herself in the middle of the woods. Her heart had been racing as her eyes dated around through the mass of trees that surrounded her. She could hear leaves cracking underfoot as something took a spin around the shadows. She turned to try and catch a glimpse but she just barely saw the back end of whatever it was as it disappeared once more. "Who's there?" She called out, though she didn't expect an answer.

Turning, her feet kicked up dirt as she started to run through the woods. Her body bumped into the thick tree trunks and she could feel the bruises appearing on her body. But she couldn't stop. Heart thumping, she continued to run as the creature, or whatever it was, got closer and closer to her. She head towards a clearing when the creature on her tail snagged her foot. Raina fell to the ground, feeling the dirt staining her face. Flipping herself on her back, she prepared for an attack but nothing was there. Out of breath, her eyes darted around the circle of the clearing. As she did, the trees around her started to grow crookedly, wickedly. The branches bent like fingers reaching for her menacingly.

She screamed and backed up until she could get to her feet. No sooner had she taken a step away from the reaching fingers then they had gripped her. They wrapped around her, pinning her arms at her sides as they roped around her waist. The other ones started to claw at her violently, like an animal tearing her flesh into ribbons. Blood dripped from her body until she woke up violently. Drenched in sweat, sheets tangled around her body, it took almost fifteen minutes to pull herself together and realize she'd been only dreaming. And they had been getting worse every night.

This last one had felt so real that when her eyes laid on the clock and she'd realized that she had slept all day, she decided there was really only one thing that she could do to calm the thoughts of blood and destruction.

And that was alcohol.

With a bottle of jack daniels shoved in her bag, she threw on a skirt (in the chance that she wanted to get in the water) and a tank top, followed by a pair of slip on flats. Then Raina was out the door. She didn't want to be there right now. All she wanted to feel was numb. She had been hoping that, much like what most people told her, the ache would lessen with time. She had been all but hoping that one day she would wake up and it would hurt less, even just a tiny bit, but she'd had no luck with that. Every morning hurt just as badly. What if she never recovered? She didn't want to be reckless, but she didn't want to be in pain. So she didn't waste any time getting down to the pond. Stopping beside the water, Raina sat down and pulled out the bottle of whiskey. It started with a few shots. The burning in her throat as she swallowed each shot helped, but she wanted more, needed more.

She wasn't sure how much time passed by a quarter of the bottle down, Raina was laying back on the ground, staring at the sky. She hummed to herself as she twisted the bottle open again and held it against her lips to take another sip. Her cheeks were flushed with the taste, eyes watery from the buzz.

This was definitely helping.


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[info]poeticmisery
2010-10-01 03:19 am UTC (link)
Desmond desperately wished for the sun rise to come. He wished for the rays of the sun to strip him of the powers that he couldn't shut off, the ones that made it abundantly clear that Raina was confused and in pain. He could hear the way that her heart beat quickened as he'd moved her and how her breath had stilled in her throat at the one word that he had uttered to her. He could tell that she was confused, he could tell that the confusion was steadily turning into hurt. It was as if the universe itself was conspiring to rob him even of this moment of solidarity to selfishly feel for just himself. He gripped his legs a bit tighter as he closed his eyes and desperately tried to shut it out, shut out the smell of sex surrounding them, mixed with blood... shut out the scent of her hormones which had been going crazy up until a few moments ago.

He could hear the sound of the fabric moving against her skin as she pulled on her shirt, and he breathed out slowly, opening his eyes to stare at the grass, his mind drawing back to that awful night, the last time that the beast had really been truly... free. He could still feel the cold of the iron cutting into his wrists and he rubbed them instinctively as he stared out into the night and started to rock lightly, shaking his head to try to get the images that were flowing through his minds eye out of them. He wasn't back there... he was in control... he could control himself still. If he couldn't control himself... if he couldn't keep control of himself... then he needed to leave this place... he needed to go somewhere where the world would be safe from him.

That or he needed to kill himself outright.

He heard her words and he scowled slightly, his face starting to twitch as he forced himself to swallow and close his eyes again. When she reached out to cross the distance between the two of them she would feel her hand stop against something, as if there were a piece of glass between them, an invisible wall, a boundary that she couldn't cross. Desmond had not advertised the fact that he had telekinesis, in fact of all of the abilities that he'd used on campus since arriving, it was the one that he used the least. But now he did it without even thinking about it, a mere side thought in the back of his mind. Raina would not touch him, she would not be able to touch him again tonight. He would not allow that much. So even if she were to pound against the air itself, her hand would always stay a few inches from actually touching him....

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