Siri’s ability to speak died momentarily at Obi-Wan’s words. She hadn’t expected him to bring it up. At all. For a very rare moment she was speechless. Absolutely without the ability to say anything at all. If she was honest she would admit her own failings, her own breaking of their deal. But if she admitted it, would he pull away from her? Would he find reasons to avoid spending time with together with her? Would the distance between them increase?
She could lie. It was possible; she could hide her tells in the Force and lie to him. Tell him no, there was no breaking of their deal. Postpone things a little bit longer. But watching him look down at the water she wasn’t sure she could do it. She wasn’t sure she could do it at all. She wasn’t sure she wanted to.
It was too easy to shift closer to him, to curl her legs under her and shift to face him. Her hand cupping his cheek, she gently turned his face to hers. “If you have... then I have.”