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Helena Wells-Quinzel is H.G. Wells (indelibleink) wrote in makebelievelog,

Even with the storm of thoughts and emotions running through her, all of them seemed to calm the longer Myka was there. And as Myka linked their fingers, Helena was more than glad for the continued touch. She needed that grounding now more than ever before. She still felt unstable, as though she might disappear or turn into a hologram again at any moment. But with her hand in Myka's, she was able to reassure herself that she was, in fact, a solid, sentient being.

Myka was so very right that being alive didn't mean that they were all right. Helena was so far removed from all right, and had been for so long she wasn't even certain she knew what being all right truly meant. But with Myka there with her, maybe she could learn that again. Perhaps she could actually work through her issues and learn to let go of things, knowing that Myka was there and obviously willing to listen when needed. Despite knowing she had so many things to say, Helena didn't even know where to start. There were so many things to say, so many things to make up for, but Helena knew simply saying she was sorry wouldn't fix any of it. No, Helena knew she needed to prove herself, needed to prove that her desire to change herself was an honest one. Or had she proven just that when she's sacrificed herself? Really Helena had a hard time seeing whether that redeemed her or not given everything she'd done in her life. But there was no greater act of love than dying to protect the one you love.

Looking at their clasped hands, Helena's gaze slid upwards, briefly detained by the fact she realized Myka's shirt was see-through. Her gaze, after some moments, finally slid back up to Myka's face, or what she could see of it from this angle. "You have no idea how wonderful it feels to touch things again." Helena finally broke the silence. On the surface, it seemed like an innocent enough statement, but given Myka knew what Helena had been put through, it spoke to the state of shock she was still in. And it spoke to the fact Helena was trying to come to terms with all the changes she'd been through in such a short amount of time.