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Helena Wells-Quinzel is H.G. Wells (indelibleink) wrote in makebelievecomm,
@ 2013-06-22 16:58:00

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h.g. wells, myka bering

>> There is something I should tell you.
>> While it may sound unbelievable, I assure you it is very much the truth.

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	Return Text agent_bering 2013-06-23 06:47 am UTC (link)
	>> That's a way to start a conversation, this place really raises the bar on 'unbelievable'. What do you need to tell me? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Return Texts indelibleink 2013-06-23 06:53 am UTC (link)
	>> I could have started the conversation by simply blurting out what I have to say which may or may not have been met with a positive reaction. >> This sort of 'unbelievable' is not anything fantastical, it is rather mundane, but 'unbelievable' when you know me. >> I'm seeing a therapist. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Return Texts agent_bering 2013-06-23 07:01 am UTC (link)
	>> True. But you have to admit this place makes surprises difficult. [After the last] >> Oh. That's a big step to take. >> Do you find that it's helping? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Return Texts indelibleink 2013-06-23 07:14 am UTC (link)
	>> It was Claudia's suggestion, actually. >> It is difficult to say. I've had seven sessions with her. >> Originally I sought the help in regards to Christina, though the focus now seems to be teaching me how to cope with grief. >> That is a difficult task to grasp. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Return Texts agent_bering 2013-06-23 07:37 am UTC (link)
	>> Claudia seems to have it together here. >> Not a lot can be done in just seven sessions. I would give it more time. >> It is hard. It's something that takes a lot of work. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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2013-06-23 08:01 am UTC (link)

>> Claudia is rather on top of things here.
>> I am trying. I would not have even sought this course had Claudia not suggested it and I realized I needed more help than I could get from my friends.
>> The difficult part is also omitting such details as the fact it's almost been one hundred and twenty-two years since Christina died.
>> Also trying to work around the building a time machine is difficult.
>> Not to mention the part about being a murderer as well. I'd rather not end up in jail or locked in an asylum.
>> I don't think I am that bad off.
>> ....am I?

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	Return Texts agent_bering 2013-06-24 11:59 am UTC (link)
	>> So long as your therapist is good, it's not a bad thing to try. >> I can see how somethings would be difficult to bring up. I don't want you to end up in an asylum either! >> I don't think you're that bad off. Why do you ask? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Return Texts indelibleink 2013-06-25 05:37 am UTC (link)
	>> She is good. Though opening up to a stranger is no easy task, but I am trying. >> Self-hatred has a very new meaning when factoring in my younger self. >> She is not wrong in the things she has said to me. They are also things I have said to myself many times before. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Return Texts agent_bering 2013-06-25 05:47 am UTC (link)
	>> I'm happy you found a good therapist. >> I hadn't thought about that, but, I can see that. >> Helena, no, you are a good person. Your younger self is young, she doesn't understand circumstances. You are a good person. Who made wrong choices, yes, and did some bad things. But in the end you made the right choices. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Return Texts indelibleink 2013-06-25 06:08 am UTC (link)
	>> The operating and key phrase here is 'in the end.' >> The scales are still tipped heavily towards the negative. My right choices in the end do not make up for all the wrong ones I made. ~~Not even dying for yo~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Return Texts agent_bering 2013-06-25 06:14 am UTC (link)
	>> And what are you now? >> Bad choices do not erase the good someone has done, either. They're separate things, and have to be judged separately. >> You accepted the consequences of your actions. You accepted the punishment the Regents gave you. And now you are a good person, doing good things. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Return Texts indelibleink 2013-06-25 06:28 am UTC (link)
	>> I am not that black and white, I am a very dark shade of grey. >> That person I was, the one full of anger and hate is still part of me, will always be part of me. >> It is a constant struggle to keep myself from falling back into being that person. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Return Texts agent_bering 2013-06-25 10:09 am UTC (link)
	>> I know. Grey, but I wouldn't say so dark. >> And you're fighting still. That counts. If you weren't good you would have joined Sykes instead of helping us. >> I know it's hard. But Claudia and I are here for you, to help you. We believe in you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Return Texts indelibleink 2013-06-25 09:52 pm UTC (link)
	>> Sometimes I do wonder what redeeming qualities you see in me. They tend to become lost within the multitude of damning qualities I have. >> It was mostly you, Pete and Artie that stopped Sykes. I did not do much. >> Thank you. It is still a strange feeling to know I am not alone and that someone believes in me. (Reply to this) (Parent)