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Andy Gallagher has Jedi mind powers (socompelling) wrote in makebelievecomm,
@ 2012-09-08 23:09:00

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andy gallagher, sam winchester

Hi. It's me.

Well I guess you know that it's me.

Could I... talk to you? About something?

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	fireinthesoul 2012-09-08 01:28 pm UTC (link)
	Of course, Andy. You can talk to me about anything, anytime. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	socompelling 2012-09-08 01:33 pm UTC (link)
	Even... Okay. How do I... when does it stop being cheating? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fireinthesoul 2012-09-08 01:42 pm UTC (link)
	When you realise that's it's okay. Because he would want you to be happy. It's okay to be happy again. After Jess died, I struggled with the same question. It's something you have to find inside yourself, Andy. You have to let go just a little. Not a lot, not all the way. Just enough to make room for someone else to step inside. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	socompelling 2012-09-08 01:43 pm UTC (link)
	I need to stop telling myself he can come back, don't I. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fireinthesoul 2012-09-08 01:45 pm UTC (link)
	I don't think he's coming back, Andy. He lives on in your heart, but that is all. You are here, and you need more than a memory, now. It's okay. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	socompelling 2012-09-08 01:49 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. Would you... hold onto something for me? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fireinthesoul 2012-09-08 03:17 pm UTC (link)
	I will. Whatever you want, I'll keep it safe. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	socompelling 2012-09-08 04:00 pm UTC (link)
	When I couldn't see he made these recordings... I figured... he's your brother and- it's just him reading. Nothing personal. Um, yeah. I think you should have them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fireinthesoul 2012-09-09 03:44 am UTC (link)
	I'd like that, Andy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	socompelling 2012-09-09 04:16 am UTC (link)
	He was a good guy. Your brother. I'd never cheat on him. But... I think, what you said... I think I need to try that. After Jess... were you afraid you'd never feel that again? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

fireinthesoul
2012-09-10 12:27 am UTC (link)

After Jess died, I was afraid I'd never love anyone again. And I was afraid I would. But you know what? I did, I have. And I know now I'm right where I'm supposed to be with Cas.

It's a journey, and every step leads you closer to the place you're meant to be. My brother loved you, and whereever he is, even if he can't remember his time here, his soul will always love you, just as you will always love him. But he isn't here, and the short time I had to know Adam, I know he wouldn't want you to be alone forever. You've grieved, and maybe some part of you will always grieve, that's okay. As long as you can remember the good times, it's okay to move on. That's what Adam would want for you.

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socompelling
2012-09-10 04:50 am UTC (link)

That's how I feel. You know, seeing you with Cas it's easy to forget that I'm seeing the other end of things. Thinking about it that way... ~~What if Adam was my Cas? No. I can't. He's not here. He's not gonna be here.~~

It's what I want for him too. I want him to find someone who makes him so happy he doesn't know which was is up. Wherever he is. If he remembers or not. I don't want him to grieve. I want him to move on and be happy.

Thanks for talking to be about this. I know... it's not the easiest thing to think about. I couldn't ask for a better friend, you know.

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	fireinthesoul 2012-09-11 12:42 am UTC (link)
	You're not just a friend, Andy. You're a brother, too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	socompelling 2012-09-11 01:56 am UTC (link)
	So this is how that's meant to feel, huh? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fireinthesoul 2012-09-11 02:22 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, yeah it is. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	socompelling 2012-09-11 02:58 am UTC (link)
	It's good. I like it. (Reply to this) (Parent)