Marietta Edgecombe (marietta_louise) wrote in magic_days, @ 2008-01-07 18:13:00 |
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Who: Marietta Edgecombe. Self RP, but open to Cho if Katie wants
When: April 7, 1996 about 6.00 PM
Where: Sixth Year Ravenclaw Girls' dorm
Why: Because somebody has to rat out the DA. Eep!
To say that the DA has been on my Mind lately would be a gross understatement. To say that it's an all encompassing obsession is definitely much more correct. Every time my galleon's changes, displaying another time we're going to 'tempt the dragon', I can feel the paranoia rise. I mean, Hermione Granger might think a galleon is so normal no one would ever think it out of place, but as a girl whose pocket change consists of spare sickles and knuts, the fact that there's an actual galleon among all of it seems as though it would just scream suspicion.
The date says we're meeting tonight and my nerves are frayed. I can't let Cho go alone, but I don't want to go and risk getting in trouble again, either. Cho can't understand, and maybe I haven't explained it well enough...what being caught in this could mean for me. Her parents don't work for the Ministry - she doesn't have to worry about them being fired if she gets caught in illegal activities. She doesn't have to worry about if the rent will be made each month and she'll even have a home. She doesn't have a name like Edgecombe, a memory like my father's to live up to. Sure, she faces the shame of expulsion and that's no small threat, but I can't help but feel as though the situation is not near as dire for her as it is for me.
Aside from that, my horoscope for the week has me on edge and the guilt of lying to my mother is growing. I mean, I haven't lied to her since that time in primary school when I got in trouble and decided not to show her the note my teacher wrote for her (which I ended up being caught and duly punished for anyway) and now I know she's also edgy about everything with Umbridge and the Ministry and I know things that I'm deliberately keeping from her.
It's with fidgety hands I pull down my bag of runestones. I desperately need to relax a little bit, and Divination has always been good for calming me, even though I can hear Mum saying that it's rubbish. And it is almost a bit calming as I stick my fingers in the bag and feel the smooth stones I haven't used since Professor Firenze took over for Professor Trelawney. After all, while I'm doing quite well with centaur divination, comparatively, I'm still a human and human Divination is where I feel most comfortable. Maybe this will help me what to do for tonight, too, if I should go and protect Cho or stay behind or...
I freeze at the stone I've cast: Thurisaz reversed. The thorn is bad enough on its own - conflict and change, but to come up as a reversal...that spoke of betrayal, danger and defencelessness, a bad man or woman. Instantly I know it's about the DA and it can't be good. I know there's evil afoot with Sirius Black and his connections with Harry Potter, but the rest...Merlin, do I feel defenceless and in danger. I'm caught in the middle of lies. And betrayal. Betrayal. Someone's going to betray the group, we're going to get caught and my horoscope and all my nightmares are going to come true.
It's with grim realisation I know what I have to do. I have to beat the betrayer to the punch and beg. Beg for me and Mum. For Cho and even the others. I have to explain about Harry and Sirius Black and how we couldn't leave. I'll have to beg off sick to Cho...I feel guilty about the thought of lying to her, but it's the only way. And I do feel rather peaky anyway.
All right then, here goes nothing.