Ty Johnson (allthingsdark) wrote in madisonvalley, @ 2019-06-01 20:48:00 |
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Entry tags: | !closed, !log, ~2019 june, ~25 points, ~~jane foster (astrosearcher), ~~ty johnson (allthingsdark) |
Who: Ty Johnson and Jane Foster
What: They had a baby
When: Late Saturday night
Where: The Clinic
Warnings: TBD
Status: Closed/Partial GDoc
No amount of birthing classes could prepare for the actual pain of giving birth. Jane actually appreciated having Ty with her, had all but demanded that he stay so she could be more comfortable. Plus, she'd be damned if he missed the birth of their daughter. If she had to go through the literal pain of it, then he was going to witness it, even if she couldn't squeeze his hand while she was pushing. She seriously doubted Paige's assurances that she'd forget this pain. It was terrible, awful, and the worst part was that she couldn't scream and push at the same time. By the time it was all said and done, Jane could hardly believe it had been 6 hours since she'd shown up at the clinic. It had felt like a lifetime.
Finally, finally, she could just lay there on the bed with Elizabet in her arms, wrapped in a light blue little blanket with a snowflake embroidered on it, a gift from Ella. Jane was exhausted and ached all over, but maybe it all had been worth it. "She seems small," she murmured softly as she looked from baby to daddy. "Doesn't she seem small?" Like the slightest movement would break her. She wanted to believe they would be good parents, but it was hard to picture the path that would lead to the little girl who'd visited them twice.
"Can you take her? I need to move." She couldn't really get comfortable and she didn't want to jostle Elizabet too much if she could help it.
***
It hurt Ty in a completely different sort of way that he couldn't be as supportive as he wanted to be. He pushed all the limits of what he knew her endurance could take in the time he did spend holding her hand, pressed cool palms to her forehead when needed and was just there beside her stroking her hair when he needed to break the contact. He couldn't risk Jane or the baby both getting too cold just because he wanted to help where he could. It wasn't much but it was what he could do for them, and that extended to just sitting by the bedside when the little girl finally made her appearance. Six hours wasn't much at all from what he'd heard but it had felt like forever. He could only imagine how much worse it had been for Jane.
He kept his hand against her leg, over the blankets, enough of a barrier that it would take much longer for the cold to seep through to her skin, just looking at the two of them. He got it now, why people talked about their children the way they did. One look at Elizabet and Ty was completely smitten and completely devoted. He'd already known he loved her but how much was astonishing. So he hadn't actually touched her just yet. She was safe and warm as long as he didn't and he would do anything at all to keep her that way, even if it meant he couldn't tend to his own baby's needs.
"She's so small," he agreed, nothing but awe in his voice. So small and so delicate that Jane's request that he take her gave him pause. He couldn't just never hold her, though, would just have to be exceedingly careful and be short about it, so he moved to gently take the baby from her mother's arms. He felt like he was doing it all completely wrong despite having seen all the videos and read all the books about how to do it, but his primary objective was not to freeze the little thing to death. "Do you think she'll be alright?" he wondered, not able to quite settle her close to him, keeping her away from his body.
***
If asked later, Jane would easily say that Ty had been incredibly supportive and helpful even while she was saying some very angry things about it being his fault and Elsa's fault that she was like this. It was probably a very good thing the Snow Queen wasn't in ear shot otherwise Jane might have seriously offended her. Still, it was over and done with and they'd both agreed they were never ever going through it ever again. That was more than enough for her in terms of feeling satisfied that they'd done what they could.
Likewise, Jane appreciated that he took Lizbet without argument so that she could shimmy down the bed a bit and stretch out some before twisting this way and that to try to find a comfortable spot. "She'll be fine," she replied as she shifted around. "She's got the blanket and we'll figure out how tolerant she is. And how tolerant I still am." There was a tired sort of hope in her tone at that, since she knew some of her tolerance had come from the 'medicine' that Jemma had developed for her and some of it had come from Lizbet herself. With the baby born, they were going to have to figure out where the limit was. No doubt they'd be erring on the side of caution but they'd figure it out.
Once she was as comfortably settled as she was going to get, she held her hands out for her daughter, knowing that it would take time for him to be okay with holding her for extended periods of time. "The important thing is that she's here and she's perfect and we're together." Jane shifted one hand to reach for his to give his a squeeze before she went back to cradling Lizbet.
***
Caution was definitely the way to go. Ty wasn't going to risk the people he loved; not when they were all the family he had here now that Olaf was gone. That was really too bad. He might not be good for much but his presence had been a comfort to Ty. Someone who knew the ins and outs of god shit and had answers buried somewhere in his memory even if he couldn't ever get to them. Someone who had done the whole child with a mortal thing before. He'd fumble through on his own, had to, but his grandpa would have been nice to have around for this.
He smiled, though, watching Jane get settled with the baby again. She was right, it would take a little experimentation, but he was going to resist it as long as he could get away with. Elizabet was too small, too fragile right now. She needed to be a little bigger before he'd be comfortable even trying it. At least for now he could look as happy as he was. For once, it made its way through to his face.
"She is perfect," he agreed, tugging the swaddling blanket a little more firmly around the child. "Never thought I'd do this but I'm glad we did." Not that there'd been much choice in it once they'd actually realized Jane was pregnant in the first place, but that didn't matter anymore. Ty couldn't remember ever being so happy. "I'll pop home before you're released and make sure everything's ready for you there."
***
Jane couldn't help but smile as he fussed at Lizbet's blanket. There was no doubt in her mind that he loved their little girl and that she'd know that no matter how physically affectionate he would or wouldn't be as she grew up. She wasn't the most physically affectionate either, but she hoped that they'd find a way to balance each other out. That was honestly one of the furthest things from her mind at this particular moment because it was a known fact that they would be okay. She was a little afraid still, but a little bit less so. Things were going to be good.
"I'll try to feed her again while you're gone," she said, already exhausted at the prospect. Still, she was game to try because she wanted to be able to have that experience with her daughter. She just felt a little bit like a failure for not getting it to work right away, but she was doing her best to remind herself that it was normal to not just get how to breastfeed. Jane just thought that maybe it would hurt less if it didn't work if Ty wasn't there to see it. "Check the fridge, too. I'm sure we've got food in there for days." She didn't put it past Barnes to break in and Darcy probably thought of that sort of thing already, too.
"And then home. I am so ready to go home." Jane smiled softly because Madison Valley was truly her home. She'd railed against it quite a lot at first but now there was no where else she'd rather be.
***
"With your friends?" And they were always hers, and that was fine. Ty had a few of his own, and there was some definite overlap, but they didn't need to share everything. Honestly he thought couples who had all the same friends were bizarre and more than a little mad. "I wouldn't be surprised if we do. I'll be sure to sort out anything you don't care for, too."
He was scared and he wasn't ready but Jane was and she wasn't and she'd had to do all the hard work on top of that. He'd just had to watch her suffer and listen to her berate him with things he knew she didn't mean. He hoped she didn't mean. He believed she didn't. The least he could do was make sure the good intentions left a good impression on her.
"I'm sure everything'll be a lot nicer when you're curled up on the sofa instead of laid up in a bed here," he agreed with a nod. "Ought to feel a bit more real then, I'd say." Again, he hoped.