Riley didn't really think that anything would have been different with Lucas if she'd been willing to have sex. He was asking for forever, after all. That wasn't the part she was worried about, not really. That wasn't going to change anything, especially not now. It wasn't going to make anyone any more ready for what Lucas actually wanted.
She didn't even really understand why he wanted it. She didn't think it was about sex, but then what?
"I just...how does everyone know they want that stuff? How do they suddenly go from being just a kid to someone who knows?"