I hate that Mr and Mrs Matthews have both gone away and I don't know how to make the world okay again for Riley without her parents here. It's not right and it's not fair and sometimes I hate this town.
But sometimes I like it too. Because Shawn is here, all the time. He can't run away to his cabin upstate, or go away on some travel writing adventure. He's here, and he's like the father I never had.
And then there's Briar. And I don't want him to think I'm some silly little girl. I want to be grown up and worldly for him. And some part of me wants to do more than kissing, but I'm afraid of that too. Because in some ways I am still like a little girl who hasn't really grown up yet.