I thought writing this would make more sense than when I tried to verbalize it.
I am scared shitless and I am afraid it's going to ruin everything. That's the last thing I want to do. I care about you immensely -- more than I thought I could care for another person. In this way. My first instinct is always to flee. I am trying so very hard not to go with my first instinct.
You have never been in a relationship with a man -- but my relationships have tended to always be purely sexual in nature, and this is completely new and I am afraid I'm going to fuck it all up.
Please tell me I am not fucking it all up.
Please tell me if I ever fuck it all up, or if I start to.
I am afraid I do not know how to be in a relationship, and if we are in a relationship -- which I think we are -- I may need some help.
...now, with that being said, do you want dinner tonight?