She snickered slightly. "Drusilla. There's a vamp I have yet to meet."
She sighed. She wishes she had that bottle. But I guess she needs to tell him the story. "About roughly five years ago, there was this apocalypse. Yep, another one of those right?" She laughed nervously before she continued.
"Anyway, it involved one of Glory's former partners, yeah another Hellgod. But this one was male. The bastard possessed my body. He made me do things..." She shook her hand slightly but gripped it in order to keep it from shaking. "...people we knew. Dawn was the first. Then..."
She hesitated as she lets go of her hand. "...you. And Riley. I heard it laugh in my voice after I killed people. It sickened me. He wanted me to remember. Red exorcized me before we got a chance to kill it, saved the world. Since then I retired from active patrolling. I only dust vampires that comes across my path and kill demons, provided they are trying to kill humans. B...my B, and myself got into huge fight. We barely speak except when our paths cross and it's just business talk."
She looked up into his eyes. Her eyes had this look like she was about to cry, but she held it back. She cleared her throat before taking his hand. "I'm so sorry for what I've done to you, Xander. I tried to stop it. I did everything I could. But that son of a bitch was powerful."