miracle (miracle) wrote in luke_noah, @ 2008-09-16 23:07:00 |
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Current mood: | anxious |
Entry tags: | -[luke/noah]-, -[other atwt character]-, fanfic, fanfic: [atwt], ยป by: mjrocca |
Original poster: mjrocca
New to fandom. I'm relatively nervous about this. I'm not even sure it belongs here, but it involves Nuke, too, so I hope I can stretch it?
TITLE:
DISCLAIMER: Not mine in any sense of the word.
AUTHOR: mjrocca / Krissy
CHARACTERS | PAIRING: Noah/Maddie, Luke/Noah
RATING | WORD COUNT: PG | 500ish
SPOILERS | WARNINGS: After the first kiss, but before the big drama.
SUMMARY: Three different conversations, one result.
The words fell out of her mouth before she could stop them, oblivious to the pained look that her best friend was giving her.
"Its like... he's a different person," Maddie sighed. "He just... Never listens. Or at least, he's giving a good imitation of listening." Her eyes lowered, "He still holds open the doors for me when we go out, and says the romantic things I want to hear, but when he kisses me, its like he doesn't want to be there. Like he's going through the motions. And when we have se--"
"I--"
"--sex, its like he forgot how amazing we are together," she finished, ignoring Luke's initial interruption.
"I thought you weren't ready for a sexual relationship with Noah," Luke finally said, catching her before she could say anything else.
"I'm not. I wasn't. But it just seems like the thing we need to do. Afterwards, he's always good to me, and loving, but before or during, its like he's in another place. I wish he'd talk to me," she sighed. She looked at him hopefully, "Do you think you could talk to him? You're friends now..."
"I... Sure, Maddie," Luke sighed.
--
"I'm not going to talk about this with you."
Luke opened and closed his mouth, trying not to be hurt by Noah's words.
"Then who are you going to talk to? You can't keep lying to yourself. You're hurting Maddie. You're hurting yourself." You're hurting me.
Noah's face clouded up. "I'm not lying, Luke. I do care about Maddie. Sometimes, more than anything else. When I'm with her, everything disappears. Worrying about my father, worrying about school, my future." 'Worrying about you' was left unsaid.
"And when you're away from Maddie, huh? What then?"
"I have to listen to this crap!" Noah cried, frustrated. Luke's mouth fell open in surprise at the outburst. "You tell me to stop lying to myself, Luke. Who says I am? Why can't I be attracted to both Maddie, and," he hesitated before saying the word, "you? Why do I have to be 'gay?' I'm sorry if choosing Maddie hurts you, but I really like her. She and I have the potential of something great."
"And we don't?" Luke asked, bitterly.
Noah shrugged. "Sure. Maybe. Just like I have potential with anyone. But I'm with Maddie, Luke. I like her. I can be myself with her and she gets that."
"I could get it," Luke said, and tried to ignore the whine that wanted to come with the words.
Noah didn't answer him.
Luke knew he wouldn't.
It felt like a defeat and they weren't even playing a game.
--
When Maddie walked into her bedroom, she raised a hand to her mouth. The room was dark and her dresser was covered in candles.
"I spoke to Luke today."
Maddie spun at the sound of Noah's voice and stared at him.
"I'm sorry if you felt like I was thinking about someone else."
"I--"
Noah slid his hands up her cheeks, cupping her face. "I like you, Maddie, and no one else. Believe me when I say this."
"I want to, but--"
He brushed his thumbs across her cheeks and leaned in, kissing her softly. She opened her mouth to him and gave a soft sigh at the exploration of his tongue.
Maybe they could work after all, she decided, and gave into him as his hands slid beneath her shirt.
At least for the night.