Lucid_daydreams was always meant to be for fanfiction not original stuff. And since I quit VoicesInMyHead Beastswithin has been useless.
So here are the Drabbles from Beastswithin All Six of them -_-; And now I can use that journal for something else. *cough*Ragnarok*cough*
Who is Vincent Valentine? Who am I?
I have been many people, I have been a Turk, a gun for hire, I killed people and felt nothing.
I have been a bodyguard, I failed in my duty to protect and damned both my beloved and myself.
I have been an avenger, I killed the man who had killed me, I killed him for the woman I had loved and I enjoyed it.
I have been a savour, I helped save the world, by killing the son of the woman I loved.
I am a killer.
I am a monster.
That is who I am.
Do you have any Family? Family?
If you class family as blood relatives that you have close personal contact with then I don’t have one.
However if you believe family is more than that, then yes I do have a family.
There was a time where I locked myself away from the world and slept, I was childishly trying to hide from my guilt and the anguish I was suffering from what had been done to me and the one I loved. For nearly thirty years I had no contact with any living thing. Until Avalanche came.
They gave me a shot at redemption, and chance to atone. But our journey together was long and over time the seven of them gave me much more than that.
If you class family as a group of people who depend on each other, and help each other out in times of need, even at risk to their own lives.
Then I couldn’t ask for a better one, even if they can be a little clingy at times.
What do you Fear? I fear a loss of control.
I call myself monster, there are many reasons for that, one reason is literal. When pushed beyond my limits, physical or mental, I transform into something less than human. There were four, forms, that take over, the strongest, and for a time the most dangerous and uncontrollable was named Chaos. He is gone, not dead or destroyed, but returned from where he came to await a new soul to share a body with, given the reason for it’s existence I pray that it never finds it’s way back to the land of the living. But three more remain, where I once feared them all, I now trust Gailian Beast enough to allow him to do what I can not in battle, but I will never trust him around those who can not defend themselves.
The other two, they shall never see the light of day if I can help it.
I fear a loss of control, for they long for it and I can feel their hunger.
You’re life would be much easer if... My life would be much easier if... I didn’t host Chaos within me.
That’s what I used to think, even after I learned some measure of control over the beast he caused nothing but trouble.
And then in that last fight, against the Omega WEAPON it was Chaos that gave me the strength to defeat it. I should have died in that battle, returned to the planet like all the lifestream within WEAPON and the corrupted lifestream within myself.
But I didn’t, and it was because of Chaos. He saved me, then returned to the lifestream alone
To say that I miss him would be a lie, his absence is noticeable however.
And no his return to the lifestream has not made my life significantly easier.
To be truthful. I kind of miss the wings.
Can you Cook? My Cooking is only passable at best. I’ve gotten better at campfire cooking with practice. Cid once said, considering I’m male, that my cooking was better than he expecting.
I’m not sure if that was a compliment or not. Sometimes with Cid you can’t really tell.
The best cooks I’ve ever met though are Cid’s wife Shera and Tifa.
Cid has often said that I only visit him because of Shera’s meals, and the fact that I don’t have to sit in a bar full of people to eat them.
He might not be all that far from the truth.
"There is no agony like bearing an untold story inside of you." - Maya Angelou
I personally would have no problem not telling anyone my untold stories, if it wasn’t for everyone asking me so many questions.
Why did I join Avalanche? Was I scared? What was it like fighting Sephiroth and Jenova? Did you ever think you would fail? What did I do on the night before the battle? What are you going to do now?
And it has not gotten any better over the years.
Does it hurt to transform? What exactly is Chaos? What was it like fighting Omega WEAPON? Where did you go in the few days after Omega WEAPON’s defeat? You were feared lost.
The only problem I have with’ bearing an untold story’ inside me is that everyone wants to hear it.
And if they don’t hear it they just make up their own.
Tifa kept a scrapbook on all the ‘news’ the papers have printed about all of us. I think she started it to tease Cloud with, but apparently the stuff they’ve made up about me is also...amusing.