"Not for the rest of my life, no," said Vanessa. "The plan is to work on my control very carefully while I'm here. I just don't want to rush and get someone seriously hurt, much less people I actually like."
If she somehow failed to ever fully learn to control it, her plan was to meet jerks via online dating sites. The sleazier, the better. People she wouldn't feel too bad about weakening. But she preferred to work on her control. Vanessa was far too proud and held herself to stanards that were far too high to accept defeat so easily.
"I think my control has improved enough to safely kiss someone, but you can see why I want to be so cautious."