"I am a murderer, I've lied, I've cheated, I've stolen, I've forced people to give me money due to extortion and fear. I tricked and lied to his mother for years? What good is there to say about me? I write pretty music? That's not a lot for a boy to be proud of, Christine...as much as I hate him, Raoul is much more of a man to be proud of as a father..." he sighed and placed the book on the bedside table and held Christine close to him, gently kissing her forehead.
"I love him too, he's my greatest accomplishment in life. I just...I'm afraid when he gets old enough to understand...that he'll despise me."