James nodded. Oh, he got that. Very much so. "People love you here, Ben. Your husband loves you. You're not a.. could never be a.." He really couldn't bring himself to say the word. "Jesus Ben, I'm sorry, but it still really shocks me, I should keep it to myself, but I can't get over why someone could, how someone could be that.. least of all your.." he was getting angrier the more he thought about it. "I know you said you didn't want Jon to know, but.. maybe you.. maybe, when you can.. maybe he should know?"