what about getting old makes you panic? i get all in my head every year on my birthday when there's another young emerging artist thing i can't apply to anymore because i've aged out and that gets me thinking if i haven't made it by now i never will. music's a big part of it, i smoke a bowl and chill and try to do something that requires no effort on my part like watching or listening to something. on the rare occasions i'm self-aware enough to know wallowing won't make it any better, i'll go for a walk, maybe hit the botanic garden, go to a museum, try to get out of my head a little