I did, and you're outlook is something Jedi do have. Or should have. Some get too caught up in the Code, or tie themselves too much to the rules. And some...simply forget themselves and lose their path. Sometimes responsible power puts them on a dark path.
If you wish too I shall not stop you. I can be found in what is called the Palace. It is a Dojo and easily found.
If you know Jedi I suspect you know lightsabers. I cannot see the joy in them, but I do not discourage others from it. I will show you how to hold, and wield, one without losing any limbs.