I hope you know this too, but I doubt very much that was her intention. I can understand, after everything you went through, being raw and needing to keep yourself away from things. For what it's worth, I'm sorry you were in that position. As for believing it enough for the both of us? Don't you worry, that's one of my specialties. You'd be hard pressed to talk me out of it, but please don't take that as my not listening to you or telling you how to feel. I know how hard this is on you.
You did what you could which, right then, was to keep yourself inside your comfort zones. I can't tell you how many times I've been ushered out of a room because, with where my head was at, I couldn't have been a help. In your case even, with what I can only imagine is the exhaustion from the change as well as the action, keeping yourself held back was probably the responsible choice. Everyone came out of it okay and blaming yourself for not being there to help isn't something you need right now I don't think.
As for your training? I'd be happy to help. We can find somewhere remote, when you're ready and feel comfortable. Before we move onto that we can talk some, share things that work for you across the various timelines, see what we can come up with. We can start today over the tea if you'd like, but I want to be very clear with you. This is at your pace Bruce, this is where you're comfortable. If you don't want me coming by for tea today, I'm not going to force it. I'll ask you again tomorrow and, if you're still not ready then, I'll ask you the day after that.
You're my friend, different memories or not. I'm not going to give up trying, but I'm not going to force you into anything you don't want to do. That's not what friends do to each other.