Just because you don't want to hear it doesn't make it any less true Bruce.
I know it's not how you feel right now, I understand that guilt at least to a degree. I do want you to know that, as far as I'm concerned, you have absolutely nothing to apologize for at all and you never will. I wasn't hurt and, because of where I ended up, I was able to make sure someone who might have gotten hurt otherwise, didn't.
You want me to come down to medical and we can talk about this face to face, bring you a cup of space coffee?