I don't want to tl;dr since it's been a while since this was posted (again, I apologize for not replying until now).
I agree with everything you said concerning the lack of initiative thing. You're right, I should stop letting the other players decide for me and start being more active in the game. I promise I'll do my best to work on it. Please tell me if what you think in the next crit meme, or the one after that, if you want.
I've decided to drop Touya. I realize this might not be the best/smartest decision, but I feel so uncomfortable with him at this point, it might be better to just drop him and be done with it. I might pick him back up in the future, but now it's just too much for me.
Thank you and the other anon here for giving me crit. Even though I admit it made me lose motivation for a while (that and other things, or course), it was definitely needed and I agree with pretty much everything you said. I hope you'll take the time to give me crit in the future, too.