[Quiet, too, but does relax a little - grateful that she's trusting him with this] [He nods]
It's... one of the most difficult things I've ever had to do, far more difficult than I even realized was possible.
[...] [And it doesn't help that he keeps having this. strange, foreign ache whenever he thinks about being separated from Merlin -- that if he were to leave this time, it would be a very, very long time before they were to meet again. That he'd be somewhere too far away, too distant.]
... All I want is to have him by my side. Because it feels that he's always merely belonged there.