There are many things that I'm not at liberty to say, in regards to the situation. For my past actions, though, against Kara or against others... I'm sure there are those who will eventually realize I can't be forgiven. [He doesn't understand, honestly, how Aramis can stand to look at him - especially with her here now, hence why he's been avoiding him like the plague]
It's for the best. As I said... she has no reason to seek me out.