I know. [He appreciates it. You're a good, loyal friend] There's -- It's not my place to say. I can't tell you much, it just...
[Sighs]
There's some things I gotta accept. And I thought that, knowing it could happen, I was prepared for it -- but I really wasn't. And it's the fucking worst to get used to something being a certain way before you have to accept that you were deluded all along.