And I could never give up soldiering. But she didn't like me being a soldier. Can't blame her for not wanting to spend the rest of her life being afraid I wouldn't come home to her. So we parted ways. Maybe I'd have been happy with her -- but not in the way I should've been, with a woman like her.
But I could never give it up. At least not when you three are still at it. [...] [Looks away briefly, quiet for a moment] I left Charon and Flea to fend for themselves. Thought they'd be fine on their own without me. Selfish of me, I know... knew I could do better for myself. So I left him to become a traitor and -- to nearly get her killed.
And I'm never going to do that again. Not when I'm still needed.