I... I know that. [And it's not like he's saying he wishes he was a woman, really, but...]
[Breathes out, shakily, but it is easier to say it now that Aramis isn't actually looking at him and hugging him instead]
I don't ever want it to be that you... you decide you were wrong. To love me as you do, or as much as you do. Or that it... is ends up being not what you wanted. [...] I know that's fucking stupid.