[He knows you have a good point and that everything you're saying makes sense -- but he still feels inclined to tell you to shut up. fff.]
[...]
[Kicks his foot lightly under the table, since that's easier than trying to articulate his thoughts atm, don't mind him, he's just having a bundle of feelings he can't digest, nbd]
Merlin, I... [m- mrrr. ;_;] [................] [Quiet for a moment, frowning, thinking back on some of the things he was forced to admit while caught by the vines, some of the things that Pan said] Was it... ever so bad that-- [mrr]
Was there ever a time you thought you might have given up on me, for all I've done and said? [He knows there was a moment when he would have left with Freya, but...]