[Finally Ucchii allows himself to feel the full weight of his choices, the fear and the hurt of pushing his body past its limits and gambling with his own life. He never wanted to pretend he was infallible - he is keenly aware of his own weaknesses - but with adrenaline rushing through him and people like Lilo depending on him to be strong, he had pushed aside concerns for his own safety and fought with everything he had.
But now, safe in Daigo's embrace and fully aware of how much he had worried his friends, now is different. No longer is there a battle to fight, nor a lord to disappoint; no one he has to protect nor prove himself to. He is alone with the man he trusts more than anyone with his vulnerabilities.
The urge to confess overwhelms him, and he cuts the kiss short, pushing Daigo away just enough to meet his eyes.]
I was scared. When he- [He blinks back tears. It was different with Ian. If he had fallen to help a comrade, that was one thing. But the thought that he could have died alone at the edge of the woods, suffering the exact fate his lord had tried with dying breath to keep from him... that is what frightens him.]