[He shivers for a moment, not quite hesitating but the words hit him in a way he can't quite express for a moment--that he lets out a shaky breath over, his arms instinctively keeping Merlin closer.]
Merlin... [He knows. But like this it's like he's feeling everything at once, when he'd felt nothing before.] It's the same for me.
[The words are difficult for him but meaningful because of it, a kind of hurdle that he usually never allows himself to jump.]