[Shakes his head a little, turning his head a little to kiss his neck, laughing out softly]
It's not like I particularly enjoy thinking about losing you. [And of you - but especially you.] I spent my whole life looking for my family... so I'll be damned if I lose it.
[...] It's stupid as hell to think about it but-- If I actually... existed in Camelot, or however you want to look at it - maybe he wouldn't have had to die.