[But that's the thing. More and more Ichiru is wondering about himself; wondering about if he had a role even in the slightest. He wants to ask, even while starting to acknowledge that there's the chance that he won't know how to handle whatever truths there may be.
And yet. . . for as heavy as the subject of death happens to be, would it really be all that horrible? He's the one who near-frequently wishes he never had been born at all. But he also knew what that sentiment did to Zero.
So the number of questions are only growing. They began the moment he knew of Zero's existence here.
. . . The real question was how to begin asking them. Although, first- ]
Zero probably just pushes through that, no matter what, huh. You're still so strong.
[Slight amusement colors the reply. The idea of such a reaction obviously was something Ichiru could understand. Maybe there's still so much more he doesn't even know about the Association - and even the whole vampire & hunter world - but that is pretty damn obvious.
His expression falls a bit again after that, however, brows knitting before he lifts his gaze to meet his brother's.]
. . . What about me? [He doesn't seem all too playful, now, though. The smile soon to appear is more bittersweet, because he feels he just knows]
Were my thoughts right? [No hope from the start.] As I am. . . Even as I am, do I still get any chance of walking by Zero's side? Even a little?