I asked you if it was because you were bored or needed a distraction or... whatever else it could be. And you told me it wasn't. So either you lied to me or you lied to yourself.
And I was under the impression that my choices were my own. But apparently you don't think so - since you have it in your stupid head that you were using me, as if I don't have my own decisions or desires. Just something to be used at your whim - is that it? [Because he doesn't believe that; you're just a fucking stupid, self-sacrificing and self-blaming idiot.]
If that's how you view it - and view me - then I'm not interested. I'm not interested in being seen as someone who can't make decisions for himself or comfort a friend when he needs it, not if it means I'm viewed as a means to an end rather than a friend.