It's not bad to feel as you do. You have been through a lot lately. Dunno if I'm the best person to talk to about it... [not to say he won't listen, though. Just... he only ever really had Flea. And he was the one to leave her, even if she didn't follow him.]
Guess it's just... it isn't as if there won't be other chances. [You know that as well as anyone, really.] Maybe it just wasn't the right time. Doesn't mean it'll always be that way.