[She wanted that, yes. But at the same time... she doesn't want to always be left out in the dark, either. Right now, though, her ability to keep it together is hanging by a thread, and everything hurts.]
I- I'm sorry about that. Making a scene, and constantly making stupid mistakes. I'm really dumb like that.
[Bangs over her eyes, she stares at the ground. It's safest if he doesn't see the rioting emotions that cross her face.]