[Looks at their hands for a moment and then up at him, shaking his head]
Merlin... [...................] [Blinks rapidly a few times and then ducks his head, shoulders tensed] Maybe I don't understand. If I did, then maybe I wouldn't have to feel like this whenever you care for someone. I wouldn't have to feel like a fool or as if you would... [choose someone else, prefer and love someone else over him.]
And it... it isn't as if I'd ever want you to be miserable and alone. [Aside from the whole... being forced to wait for him forever thing.]