[Tenses up a bit but doesn't pull away from him, and looks down and away after a moment, closing his eyes and trying to steady his breathing]
[...]
[Feels like he is definitely the worst person ever. no wonder everyone prefers Lancelot over him.]
... He knew. And I-- [reacted so badly when he found out, when he finally found out. and he should be happy that you had SOMEONE to talk to and yet. all he feels is that everyone he loves just wants someone else, instead. would rather have it be different.]