[Ends up half falling against him without intending to, and half actually reaching out, clinging, holding on as Subaru came closer. He shakes his head, a soft hitch in his breathing.]
No. [Resolutely, raggedly.] No, I won't let it be anything like that this time. This time--
[His arm wraps themselves tightly around Subaru's shoulders, slumping into him, finally for the first time in too long holding on to him properly.] I'm so sorry. You came for me, found me, and I could not even remember it. That cursed place robbed me even of those memories.