[The tone of his twin's voice tells him what he's thinking of, and he can't fight the wave of desperation, of hopelessness that comes over him, because in the end...]
But... it doesn't matter, does it? Because you will still... [He has to pause, as the words get stuck at the back of his throat]
That is still... what you want. Even if... [Even if that ends up breaking him even more than Sei ever could.]