[Just say "everyone's" and it's still probably accurate. It doesn't make sense to him, either, when he tries to be logical.]
[But, being reminded of what he thought back then... and what that eventually led to is like a bucket of cold water. He really, really shouldn't be doing this-- especially when he now knows better. So he pulls back, glaring at Sei.]
I don't think this is something I want to talk about.