[That's not the answer to her question.] [The nostalgic feeling in the air is affecting her, although she of course would deny such a thing is possible/happening.]
I know I'm not-- I know I can be kind of boring. [other people's words, not hers.] Or not fun or not relaxed. Or maybe the-- [sex was boring] or... or I was just boring.
I don't know what I would have done, these last few months. If you weren't here, too. [You kept her focused and grounded, somehow. Otherwise, she'd have gone crazy in this bizarre place.]