Ah, how to put it? [Especially "how to put it in a way so I don't find myself as your unpaid therapist?".]
In all my life [and Sebastian is pretty old, despite, you know, looking the typical vague bishie age] I have never seen skating as awesome as in that video. I will not speculate on Mr Nikiforov's reasons for taking you on, but I do not see why someone of his talent would waste their time on someone they did not think worthwhile.