[Nods a little, listening and not really responding beyond that for a few moments - mostly just taking the words in. He's right - hearing that isn't the most helpful rn, but he also knows it's true. He saw it just as well with Aramis himself.]
Used to like it. [Not the war itself but,] Fighting. Being a soldier. ["I can't give up soldiery", etc]
Now I'm not so sure. [He used to take pride and pleasure in fighting, and being good at it. Now it just feels like another unnecessary means to an end, that just results in more death and violence and pain.] Now I just... follow orders. It's not like it was.