Unless you've gravely wronged your loved ones, there's no reason to fix it or ask for forgiveness. What's done is done. And if the dark swallows you? Bring a lamp.
[Sorry, Mickey, no flashlight references for this Victorian boy, though he does wave his hand pretty dismissively when mentioning a lamp.]
Surely you have friends who can remind you of the light. [Mickey can practically weave a tapestry from all the strings hanging off his fingers when last they "discussed" friendship.]