[Hawke huffs out a laugh, but it's. Still strained.
There's a heavy silence after that. She isn't looking up, because this is it: this is where she really ruins everything. It was easier when she assumed Isabela had known about what happened, but. She deserves to hear it from Hawke first. It's the least she can offer.
Inhales.]
We went to the Fade. Physically went there, before I came here. Not my idea, by the way. It's worse, when you're ... when you know you're not dreaming. Uh. So there I was—[a laugh, always a laugh]—standing with Thedas' next big thing, cutting a path to the exit, and there's this spider demon the size of The Hanged Man, I swear, it was this big. So, you know, of course that means someone has to ... stay behind. To buy the others time.
[A cough. Push through it, Hawke.] That's, ah. Not the worst part. [... going to peek at her.] I killed it, but then I was stuck there. Alive. In case you're wondering, Andraste didn't swing by to say hello.