He's not trying to make things worse he just really sucks at this, Steve. "I want..." God, what does he want? How does he phrase what's really in hid heart now. "I want you to stop treating me like a kid. And to stop calling me a civilian. And... Do you even trust me?" He can't help the way his voice takes on an accusatory tone, there. But Steve gave up on him, he didn't want to internalize that. He already had so much damage from that day, scars he would wear all over again without hesitation. But what Steve did... that's different. He would never have done that. Is that what being a soldier means?