[He doesn't even think to resist, slowly hugging him back, breathing out.]
... maybe not, but I wouldn'ta wanted anyone to know how that- [felt, except even saying that is acknowledging too much, and. Jesus, he hates this. But he doesn't want to leave Porthos without the actual story, even as he knows he wouldn't really have to say anything at all... but he already knows enough, why not know the rest.]
It was the usual thing -- got outnumbered on the field, got captured by the enemy, got thrown into prison. Just, they were tryin' to replicate the serum, the one they gave Steve, an' I... everyone they'd taken before we got taken there never came back. I couldn't let any o' my men have the same fate. [And so he took it upon himself to go be an experiment in their stead.]