Maybe not. But today... you have the house, your family together. I don't want to bring my own- unhappiness to you on what should be a happy day.
[And yet, it is so easy, so easy to imagine this for herself and d'Artgnan-- or perhaps not this, no, not a family with a house like this one, not when he's a Musketeer. But she would be happy with him, and that is what matters.]
I thought it would be alright, living with someone who wasn't cruel or neglectful to me... but I never really loved him. I don't. [Not like she loves someone else.]