[He's a hypocrite in thinking it a low move to turn it around on him like that -- only because in the end it's that thought that pushes him raise his voice, desperate, his shoulders shaking perhaps the same as Bucky's hands. This time he ducks his head from the tension of it, unable to look at him directly like that.]
What kind of a second thought do you think I simply ignored? No matter how much I weighed in everything, I--!
[It didn't matter if he had second thoughts, it doesn't matter now how far his own doubts go. He's always been like this, driving to impossible lengths even if it destroys him, and that's what was in front of him just now. Never mind the implications of what it means for him when things go back to normal.]