You are kind to say as much. [/formal] But I understand.
In my life, I did many things others might have disagreed with or disapproved of [or come back as a ghost and try to kill him, but hey] - but I did what I believed to be right and to follow my own heart. You cannot go back on your convictions and your values - because then what else is there left but that.
You will do as you must, Aramis. I understand that much.